Am I a cis-gendered person? I mean, I have a penis and am on occasion attracted to other people with penises. I am ok with having a penis, but I don’t identify with the cultural norms of “male”. I like to wear pink, wish it were as acceptable for me to wear a skirt as it is for a woman to wear pants. I would probably wear eyeliner and eye shadow and glitter if it wouldn’t raise as many questions as it would. I don’t particularly identify with these things either. I mean, they don’t define me and (most days) I’m ok going without them. Some days I grieve as I recognize that I’m missing out on an expression of myself that would add to me as a person. I am upset with this ban. I would like to be a part of speaking out against it. I would like to attend trans pride events. I don’t, because I don’t feel welcome to because I’m afraid I’m not trans “enough”.
I could chide, but I’d rather reach out. I want a home. I want a home with you. Please let me in.