You're A Terrible Friend
I picked up the phone yesterday a little cautious. Unsure of what I’d say or what you’d say. In reality, it seems, we didn’t say very much at all. When I hung up the phone, it all hit me.
Our friendship is bullsh*t. An unproductive, inequitable mess.
So I’m not doing it anymore. Here’s why.
Our friendship has become one sided.
When I reach out for help or advice, you don’t respond. You told me you’d always be there for me. Nowadays you’re only there for yourself.
Why should I bother?
Your relationship is suffering
All relationships have problems, yours has too many to count. Consumer goods, new houses and new toys you use to cover up your inefficiencies. Unfortunately a broken down car won’t go very far when you put more gas in it.
You criticize what I do
When I post articles, you tell me I’m going crazy. When I read, you say I read too much. When I write, you call me a hypocrite and pretend it’s your partner who says it.
I know it’s you saying it.
So I’ll do what I have to do
I’ll do what I do when anything else isn’t adding value to my life. I will focus my energy elsewhere, unsure if we’ll ever recover.
But I’ve never been more sure of this.
You’ve been a terrible friend.
And I’ve let you be.