I’m sorry for what has happened to you. I can only agree with what Alto wrote in his response.
I’ve been through similar. I am your age. I have stayed in therapy pretty consistently after PTSD broke me a long time ago, and yesterday.
I was surprised to find myself responding to others' similar experiences I read on Medium. I have been richly blessed by expressing myself out loud” here, learning from others. I agree with Alto that life isn’t to be done alone, at least not most of the time.
Choosing to learn to spot a predator and call him out can be the lesson here rather than choosing to hide. I believe you will find the kindness I have in this odd community of Medium. I know you will a great richness of varied life experiences poignantly told, some hearty laughs and always interesting stories.
I wish you the best!