Losing someone you love!
Today I lost my uncle Chuck to his battle of kidney failure and diabetes. I’m heartbroken over this! I don’t know how to respond. I’ve known he has been sick for years, but I never imagined he would actually lose his life. I have so many emotions running in my head right now and I don’t know how to deal with them. My mom just lost her kid brother and is so strong I can’t even believe it. She was a social worker specifically working with hospice care patients. I remember growing up and having her come home either extremely happy or extremely sad. I never understood why she did what she did until this moment. She made the last couple of days of people’s lives the best days. She would read to them or talk to them about what was going on in the world. She didn’t look at them like they were dying. She looked at them as if they were just sick and trying to maintain a “normal” life. She is a saint in my eyes. She helped people deal with the hardest thing in life…DEATH. Today my mom looked at me, her beautiful blue eyes full of tears to tell me my uncle Chuck died. I will never forget the pain of her face or those horrific words she spoke. I instantly turned into tears, but knew my mom needed me to be strong for her. I knew in that moment that she needed my support and my love. Her entire side of the family lives in Washington and she is here alone without my other uncle morning her baby brothers death. I wiped my tears and jumped in her car, and we went to dinner with my daughter. We ate, we drank, we celebrated Chucks life. I made her laugh to the point of tears, I knew she needed that tonight. I love my mom and I’m going to be strong for her as she adjusts to this new way of living. I will show her love and support and never stop. I know I will need that from my loved ones as well. At the end of the day life is too short. If you love someone tell them, you never know what tomorrow will bring or if you’ll ever have the chance to be honest with yourself. Love hard and live each day as if it’s your last!