To Siriraam:

How did it feel?

Do you regret it? Was it worth it?

I heard it was your little brother who find you hanging. If that is true, and knowing that now, would you still have done it then? Would you have done it knowing the consequences created affecting the lives of your close ones?

It feels so bleak here too some days I think of perhaps joining you. Maybe not using the method you used but just something else.

I wish I could talk to you. I wish we could talk this out together and explore our possibilities. And I wish at the end of it we would find solutions and heal and always choose life at the end.

I don’t know if you felt the same, but we always know deep down there’s a sparkle, a light, a possibility of a future of a happy, simple life. I know sometimes, or even often of the time, it can be barred by times of distress, loneliness, self-hatred, blame and more.

I just wish you were here and we could talk it out