enjoying the process

The blog posts I write usually come from an idea that pops up in the moment, or a thought passing through my mind that I latch onto and dig into a little deeper. I never know what the end product will look like, I just let it all unfold in front of me as I write. I often surprise myself, especially when writing poems. I start with a single sentence and 30 minutes later I have a fully fleshed out poem that turns out very differently from what I expected. As I read back over them I’m often left wondering, “Where did that come from? How did I think of all of that?”

Writing the posts and poems for this blog taught me something special. I’ve learned that for you to begin something and give it a shot, you don’t need to know exactly how it will all unfold. You just allow the natural flow to take over and see where you end up. In contrast, when I begin writing with a fully formed idea with an end product in mind, the delivery is so much harder and at the end of it I’m often not as happy with my work.

As individuals we have a desire to be fully prepared for everything that we do. We’ve learned to associate preparation with success. It seems logical that if we plan the whole process in detail before we even start, we are sure to end up with a satisfying result. But that is so damn hard, energy draining, and just simply BORING! I am one to act upon my emotions and feel my way around what I’m doing. I develop and decide what I do intuitively instead of reasoning what I should do. Sometimes, of course, using reason is logical, but almost every time I’ve just followed my heart and let instinct take over, something wonderful has happened.

The greatest inventions and some of the biggest companies in the world started off as just an idea that developed into something much bigger and greater. It is easy for us to look at the task we face and think “I could never do that,” because we don’t look at it for the process, but for the end results. If we are to start something new or to take an idea and make it into something bigger, it’s not necessary to micromanage and plan it all out in advance. The more time we spend thinking about it, the more we realize how much we need to do to make it all come true, which can be incredibly daunting.

It takes courage to take an idea of ours and watch something vague and intangible become real. But that courage could lead to something special and something we can be proud of. Heck, we might even surprise ourselves with our ability to trasnform an idea or passing thought into something more concrete and tangible.

(I sat down with my cup of tea with only the first two sentences in mind when I started writing. I had no clue where this post would take me and yet again I surprised myself. I didn’t know what I’d end up writing about, but I’m happy about it now and how it turned out. A perfect example of how a tiny idea can turn into something much bigger.)