Cycle of Victory
I choose to live by choice, not chance, to make changes not excuses, to be motivated not manipulated, to be useful not used. I choose to put into practice what I learn then teach it to others. I choose to live with intentionality and purpose to impact people with messages and love Jesus Christ.
This is a story all ‘bout how my life got twisted upside down… while that’s not really what this is about per se, it will touch upon how my life changed through Christ.
On December 31st, 2016 roughly around 3:30 pm I found myself on my knees in front of my Bible balling my eyes out listening to Jay Prince “Where you Belong”. Needing someone to share just this wave of emotional and spiritual release with I texted one of my infinity’s Clark, first name Michael, to hit me up right away. An infinity is someone you feel transcends terms like a brother, sister, best friend, lover, etc… you both are intertwined in an infinite loop that cannot be broken by earthly temptations and failures.
After we hung up the phone and the tears dried up, there was a renewed spirit and and a heaviness I yearned to rid myself of that was finally gone. This occurred after I vowed to attend (well stream because I got rid of my car at the beginning of December) Church every Sunday for a month and “see what happens”.
For me it was a demon I had been battling all of 2016 without God’s sword and shield. Jesus finally swept in to rid that spirit from me and has steered my course in His direction. It took a complete and total submission of my ego and feeble mindedness to clearly recognize God’s plans are better than my own. Something I’ve always known but I like to learn the hard way, I’m formerly one of those types.
“When you come out of the storm, you won’t be the same person who walked in.”- Haruki Murakami
There are times in our lives when we feel at our lowest and it’s a low that cannot be communicated with or expressed to our friends, family, significant others, or even our Christian brothers and sisters. These are the moments we must lean on Him and be grounded in His word, something I failed to do in 2016. When we put our faith in Him, we will see signs and miraculous things.
“Learning is a gift even when pain is the teacher”- Bishop Dale Bronner
Do good by people even when that means sacrificing what’s best for you, Matthew 7:12, The Golden Rule.
A hypocrite is someone who teaches but has not experienced. Be careful the people you take lessons from; you wouldn’t take lessons from a chef who’s only read cookbooks but never cooked the dishes.
2 Timothy 2:2 (Every Man’s Bible)- You have heard me teach many things that have been confirmed by many reliable witnesses. Teach these great truths to trustworthy people who are able to pass them on to others.
“People don’t care to know what you know until they’ve learned what you’ve done.”- Bishop Dale Bronner
You have an obligation to return to the world what you’ve learned, what you’ve done, failure and successes, and then to teach.
What I’ve found is that these three things collectively establish “purpose”. Purpose is something that lacked for me in 2016 and instead of praying to God for help, I depended on my own feeble strength and knowledge, silly rabbit. God not only heard me but then I acted and I was rescued. Do not be idle in your attempts to be saved, God won’t reach out.
Pastor Steve Furtick said in a recent sermon, “aim without action leads to exhaustion”. Some of you right now feel exhausted, worthless, like you’ve hit a wall, keep going! That does not mean to keep going with what you’re doing, but be a warrior for the best you and do not give up.
It is ok to STOP and to be in solitude, you will be amazed at what you come to recognize in meditation and prayer. I found myself on my knees crying and recognizing that I alone was not strong enough for the greatness that God has destined me for, but I am able to do all things through him who gives me strength (Philippians 4:13).
It’s not over when you mess up or you’re losing terribly, it’s over when you quit. KEEP GOING!
To first know God is vital in helping to find yourself, know your worth, and serve your purpose.
“Knowing who you are is important because God can only bless who you are, not who you pretend to be.”- Bishop Dale Bronner
I will leave you with two things: When you don’t know who you are, you are destined to misbehave and Romans 8:28.
There will come a time when you believe everything is finished. That will be the beginning. — Louis D’Amour