Addiction — The invisible cancer that entraps us all and enslaves us under its power
Addiction starts with a thought, just one single thought.
That thought leads to a feeling or physical sensation that consumes us under its ora. The cycle will continue until the frequency of the thoughts become so frequent that they lead the individual to action.
“We are addicted to our thoughts. We cannot change anything if we cannot change our thinking.”
An inner struggle between the self and the thoughts that have grown into an addiction begins. The individual is left with the pain of not achieving the thought and living the reality of the thought. This builds up inside the individual until critical mass where they are daily, sometimes hourly tormented by the addiction.
The individual is left in a position of constant torment from the thoughts, making the thoughts a reality and not making the thoughts a reality. This battle is almost constant leaving the individual in a mental state of fragility. At this point, they are at their weakest where they are most likely to give in to the temptation of the thoughts and begin to make them a reality.
During this time they are in a state of loss of self-leaving them almost creating a separate persona to live out the thoughts.
This is a destructive time in the individual as they are no longer in control of the thoughts, they are now controlling them. This leads to the individuals to make choices out of character and end up in situations they are either not prepared for or want to be in.
Throughout this process, the individual has been led by a thought, a thought that has grown into multiple thoughts, in turn, consuming them and their entire existence.
At this point, they are about to make their thoughts a reality and experience them outside the thought. This is when the individual is left completely open to manipulation from any participants in the thought when experiencing the thought in reality.
During the experience, the individual is attacked by all the previous thoughts, feelings, assumptions, and anticipation’s of the experience against the reality of it happening, what is happening, what they are really feeling, thinking and doing.
After the experience, they know they have opened a door that they do not know how to close. They are left with the well-defined memory of the real experience of there thoughts. This will stay with them for the rest of their lives and they know it.
They know they have done something that they have massive conflicted feelings about and the constant thought of social repercussions, judgments of their actions. This grows inside them like a cancer, a cancer that cannot be cured but only managed to keep the now formed addiction from consuming the individual again.
Even after the experience the thoughts develop further in the individual’s mind leading to enhanced thoughts where they develop new additions to the addiction they want to experience (curiosity — what is that like? How far can I go?, etc)
In the end, the cycle continues inside the individual where the addiction grows or is managed by the individual.
“An over-indulgence of anything, even something as pure as water, can intoxicate.”
If they continue to grow and further experience their thoughts they further embed the addiction into there living self. They become routinely focussed on it to where every self-moment is consumed by the addiction. They are fed by the memory of the feeling of experiencing the addiction. They are not only mentally haunted by it but now they are experiencing physical withdrawal.
Once the withdrawal reaches a point of excess they seek ever greater means to experience the addiction. Every time the cycle of addiction is completed the further embedded the addiction becomes until eventually, it consumes there entire being and life. They cease to function in the normal world and unable to live there life’s again.
Only through progressive understanding from a therapist can the individual regain control of themselves and the addiction.
“There are two questions a man must ask himself:
The first is ‘Where am I going?’ and the second is ‘Who will go with me?’
If you ever get these questions in the wrong order you are in trouble.”