Things haven’t always been this way. I wonder when and why it all started. A series of events, I suppose, an incident of rejection, hate, jealousy perhaps. It doesn’t matter now. It’s been a slow long drawn out process. A process that repeats itself, like a wave crashing on the…

The Patient Experience #3: A Difficult Diagnosis When I was 23, I had my bloodwork done because people around me, gay men, young, handsome, bright men, were dying and the only indicator of why people were dying at the time was found in the blood. I went to the Doctor…

I was stargazing tonight and noticed that Orion was in the same spot as he was when I moved two years ago. I’d like to say that I’ve gone full circle but it sometimes feels like I am just spinning around in circles again and again.

From May 20, 2011 Remember the things in life that are important to you and ignore the distractions that separate me from them. There are things, places, spaces, times where I find my happiness, my connections to others, to my healthy and loving self. …

pRESS sTAR (Life before the # key) You used to call me on the telephone that thing they call the landline now we used to lie back and talk for hours lying on the ground with our legs up against the wall and looking at the ceiling as if it had stars and we would get together when we wanted instead of when we can. Then you got a cell phone and you hardly ever call and I hear more about you via text now then from your emails

There is a part of me that is afraid that I will be that kind of person that falls off the radar and people will look back and for a moment they will regret that they could have done more to help me get better.

Ode To A Hermit Thrush Some say it’s just luck, I think it’s awareness that holds the key. Earlier today, something caught my eye quite by chance. I caught a glimpse of a hermit thrush perched nearby on the sycamore branch. Later I would see him upon the window ledge. Feeling present and being relaxed is more than happenstance. We exchanged nods knowingly and I could see the world in his eyes during the glance..

Here I am on my 51st, birthday and at times it has felt like a long hard journey and at other times it’s been one hell of a pit stop. As I reflect, as I stand still and as I look ahead I know that I have the wisdom of…

The Day Of The Living Goldfinch Yesterday started off innocently enough with me sitting in the backyard with my coffee and journal when a male goldfinch suddenly landed on the peak of the hibiscus plant about two metres from me, puffing himself up, chirping with bravado and staring me down…