Which face do you show?

Martin Luther said, “If you want to change the world, pick up your pen and write.”

I had started writing and posting, sharing my thoughts and feelings and love for Christ but I let life get busy and distract me away. But today that changes. Life isn’t any less busy, in fact, it’s even busier than before, but I do want to change the world. I want to turn the world upside down, much like Paul and Silas did in Thessalonica. I want to be a trouble-maker, someone who goes against the social norms of society because society doesn’t govern me, only One person has that authority. To do this, I must to be true to Him though and true to those that take the time to read this.

“You have three faces. The first face, you show to the world. The second face, you show to your close friends, and your family. The third face, you never show anyone. It is the truest reflection of who you are.”

The third face, that truest reflection of who I am is one that only God knows, you can’t hide from Him but I desperately want the world to know that face. I want the world to know that I am a broken man, brought down by sin, but thankfully saved by grace. That I am in a battle that I would lose on my own but due to the sacrifice of the cross I don’t go at it alone. I was given the greatest gift anyone could receive, all out of love.

It is a hard thing to show that true face though. I’ve talked about why I write a few months ago and how it’s hard to put ideas out, but it’s even harder when you are putting out your struggles and pain for the world to see. But I show all of that to God and to be honest, it’s not something to hide. By admitting the weaknesses I have it might embolden someone else. It might help someone to realize that they aren’t the only one going through something.

I’m currently sitting in a Spacious workspace in NYC; here to do His work and just experience the city on a longer than normal trip. It’s been a rough week, a tiring week, a fruitful week. More than once I’ve raised my voice to God asking “Are you sure this is where I am supposed to be right now? Why is this such a struggle, why is this so painful?” Like usual, God answers, in His ways.

From meeting an awesome man from Zurich, to an old Buddhist, to a young man who showed compassion; God has answered. He has also reminded me that Paul and Silas didn’t have an easy stroll through things while being troublemakers and world changers. I fear that I’ll fail, that I’ll make the wrong decision. I fear that I will be forgotten. Satan doesn’t play fair at all and he knows the chinks in my armor and he is very good at poking and prodding.

But I have a mighty Creator that has my back, that affirms my decision and guides my steps. He knows my true face and He constantly brings comfort, hope, and shows me love. So, today, I choose the path that He puts in front of me, and keep praying that every day I choose that path, that I put Him first and everything else second. That I don’t allow satan to chip away at my armor. This by far isn’t the only struggle, but it’s the most pressing right now. It is the one that keeps me up at night, that makes me roam the streets questioning, “Are you with me right now God.” And the thing is, He reminds me evey time, im sure shaking His head at me lovingly. Love you fam and thanks for the prayers.