The Pull to Recreate Old Wounds
Co-authored by Eric S. Jannazzo, Ph.D
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In “The Tip of the Iceberg”, the difference, and the importance of recognizing the difference, between manifest and latent content was discussed as difficult moments arise in a marriage. The manifest content is the obvious issue being expressed or reacted to, and the latent content is all that lies beneath the surface in a given moment, invisibly fueling much of the manifest experience.
Too many marriages get stuck in unending loops of conflict because the latent content is never understood, let alone addressed. So the flame of a fight might die out, but since the combustible latent material remains untended to, it needs only an emotional spark to ignite again.
Of course the combustible latent material is not limited only to unaddressed issues within the marriage, for we all bring to our marriages our own individual traumas big and small, complex emotional histories that have nothing at all to do with our partners.
These histories, together with our natural temperaments, leave each of us with emotional and cognitive tendencies. That is, each of us tends towards certain feeling states and thought patterns, and these thoughts and feelings tend to shape our interpretations of relational moments, even — perhaps particularly — within our marriages.
To put it simply: much of what we tend to feel within our marriages is not about our marriage at all, but is rooted in our own emotional patterns and histories.
This idea certainly runs counter to how we feel in the moment. It certainly feels as though my partner made me feel this way, and who wouldn’t feel this way with my partner doing fill-in-the-blank all the time?
One of us (David) asked his wife (Deb) to go with him to the chiropractor with their daughter (Emma) so that she could play with Peanut, the chiropractor’s dog. David really just wanted their company. When it was time to leave for the appointment, Emma was tired and ready for her nap, but David really wanted them to go.
Even though Deb protested and didn’t feel like going, knowing Emma was going to have a meltdown, she went along. As they were getting ready to leave, their son (Eric) flipped out. He didn’t want to be left out. David didn’t include Eric because he is older and he didn’t think he’d want to go with them.
Since Eric was going, they had to deal with Phinny, the dog, crying at the door, so they took him along as well. It was a ticking time bomb. They got to the office and Phinny got into a fight with Peanut, which sent Emma into hysterics. It went downhill from there.
When they got into the car to go home, Deb immediately blamed David for everything. She was triggered because she spent her childhood subjugating her own needs. When she finds herself instinctively doing the same thing as an adult, she tends to get very upset and overwhelmed, and this was no exception.
Deb was not just reacting to the current event, rather she was exploding with the atomic force of the weight of her accumulated childhood experiences. This meant that she could only see David’s actions in the moment as selfish and manipulative, making it impossible to also see his desire for connection.
David, on the other hand, finds it extremely difficult to ask for what he needs. It is much easier for him not to ask and to stay in old feelings of deprivation and loneliness. He took a chance by asking and pushing for them to go with him, but he also ended up unwittingly choosing something that was going to inevitably backfire on him. His insecurity about asking for what he wanted made him more myopic in the moment and unable to see that it wasn’t a good time for them to go.
When we react to latent content, there is a powerful pull to repeat old wounds. As you can see with this seemingly innocuous example, Deb and David were both triggered by things that brought them back to before they even knew each other. They ended up fighting over the event itself without acknowledging what was getting triggered for both of them.
The trap that is so easy to get caught in is to remain unaware of what is getting triggered, which leads to disproportionate responses to our partners in the here-and-now. The partner then becomes the bad guy that is holding a lifetime’s worth of wrongdoings.
A challenge we often encourage our clients to take on — and endeavor to take on ourselves when we are at our best — is to learn to see the lens through which we tend to see the world.
- Can we come to recognize how our wants and wounds shape the stories we tell about what is really happening?
- Can we learn from these narratives something of what we are most needing from our relationships?
- Can we grow in our capacity to be the mature and effective stewards of getting those needs met?
- Or will we remain less conscious of our needs and expect our partners to magically keep us from feeling things we felt long before we ever even met them?
The only way to escape the vortex of the compulsion to repeat old wounds is to make the commitment to investigate and understand how our own histories and formative relationships have informed how we relate to ourselves and to others.
No one is immune from this. The goal is not that we will become so aware that we will never make mistakes, rather that when we make mistakes, we can take a step back and own what we are bringing to the table, how that is influencing our perceptions of events and how it is impacting our partners.
This is really hard to do, especially when we’re triggered and suddenly feel possessed. That’s why we always tell people that it’s not about not making mistakes. It’s what we do with them that matters. Mistakes are opportunities to learn from and grow with as long we are willing to make the effort.
David B. Younger, Ph.D is the creator of Love After Kids, for couples that have grown apart since having children. He is a clinical psychologist and couples therapist with a web-based private practice, and lives in Austin, Texas with his wife, 11 year-old son, 2 year-old daughter and 4 year-old toy poodle.
Eric Jannazzo, Ph.D is a clinical psychologist licensed in the State of Washington. He works with a wide range of people presenting with a wide range of issues and has been greatly influenced by the multicultural and feminist movements. On a more personal note, he is a photographer and woodworker, and has been professionally and joyously involved in these pursuits for a number of years.
*This post was originally published on 8/29/16 on the Love After Kids blog.
Originally published at www.huffingtonpost.com on August 30, 2016.