What an incredible, beautiful, and heartbreaking piece of writing. You are such an incredible writer and I expecially love your ability to make us readers see through your eyes over the years. I am so sorry for you to have suffered in this world of feined and superficial acceptence.
This world of ‘liminality’ is harsh and lacking empathy. I have been writing a book for a while about this world of double standards that feels as though alking on two parallel worlds at once and fitting into neither. It has to do with gender roles and distinctions and also follows characters through their eyes as a child.
I want to thank you for your incredible bravery in writing this piece. It has greatly effected me. Above all, I wish you the best and hope that you can find others who love and accept you in your entirity.