Positive thoughts

So, I just sat here on my couch and wrote 3 paragraphs about something I really wanted to get out and then realized no matter how much I wrote, it just wasn’t getting anywhere. In the middle of my writing, all the words got blurry and my screen started freaking out and I just started getting extremely frustrated for no reason. Probably my anxiety acting up or whatever. So I started a new story in google docs and now my screen is still freaking out and making checker board designs all over the place. I of course got frustrated and stressed out again but then realized how ridiculous I was being. And I realized that we all get like this a lot. No, we don’t all stress out when checkerboards appear on our laptop screens, but we all focus on the negative way too much. Lately, I find myself waking up and dreading having to get out of bed. Yes, the bed that I’m able to have, in the house that was built for my family, whom I’m able to live with, that I need to get out of in order to go get a free education. But I rarely think of these things, and that kind of makes me sick. Instead of constantly focusing on the little things that seem to go wrong each day, I think I’m going to try to open my eyes a little more and realize how ridiculous I sound. Yes, I realize how this may come off to a lot of people, and feel free to do fake gag if you feel so inclined to do so, but yeah, that’s that. I’m done now.