Is really a bird in the hand worth two in the wood?
Or what does following your dreams cost?
Only a few short hours ago, I got a new job offer. And it is the best I can do.
Or is it?
Short background
I am a person who would always pick the adventure (read: disaster) before I take a reasonable choice. A few years back a friend said about something I was planning: “That sounds like a reasonable choice” — and it hurt. How could I think of that?? I have slept on staircases, stations and in the houses of strangers. I have at times spent my last money for a plane ticket and the trip that follows. Why would anyone think I can conceive a reasonable notion?
So how do I take a job which will make me sit and look at a computer screen all day, instead of buckle up and wait something creative to show (considering that have several of those in the pipeline too…)
Point one: Follow your dream no matter what?
So, I was originally going to decline the offer — it is not in any remote way related to writing or creativity. Nor travel. Or digital nomadery. Just pure, unaltered, paperwork. I’d say mundane but let us not go too far.
They always say, follow your dreams, no matter what. But what does no matter what even mean?
Who pays the food and the rent? What if we hurt people who we love, by not being by their side when they need us? Or we become the ballast in their lives?
What if following your dreams means you never have a roof over your head? — do your dreams include a roof?
Mine do. I want to have it all. I want to be close by the people I love, to have a home, and to have a job which is fulfilling.
Point two: You get stuck in a rut
Seems, the stuck-in-a-rut point is quite the thing out there! It means, you feel you are stuck on a hamsterwheel. Unhappy. Not doing what you love, usually as a result of monotonous life. Just a quick online search brought me to this quite nice article about how to fix your life after that (http://theeverygirl.com/21-ways-to-feel-better-when-youre-stuck-in-a-rut). Mostly, relax, travel and do what you like. Ummm… okay.
What would you do then? Eventually, you stop doing what makes you feel stuck. So you quit that job. And then, unless you have savings (from the said rut) or rich parents, you are — guess where — at Point one again.
So what then?
Well, truly, I do not have an ultimate answer. But there must be more to life than missing on living our full potential because of fear (what would others think, of failure, of the future, of the uncertain). Or being constantly on the loose, not knowing what follows, living with no plan and no goal, just hopping from one place to another.
Perhaps the rut is only in our heads. Out of the 24 hours the star alignments give is in a day, we all have two-thirds to do what you must. And one third to make a difference.
I will decide tonight after drinks.
