Day 100: The ‘100’ Milestone #365DaysOfWriting

With today’s post, I reach a century. I wish I could feel ecstatic about reaching this far, but the truth is that I feel nothing. Absolutely nothing. Perhaps, it is because I realize that it isn’t really such a great achievement — I still have 265 days to go, perhaps, even more.

It was on quite an impulse that I took this challenge. These days, I feel like I’m just writing for the sake of it, and art for art’s sake is never capable of producing great results, is it? If I look back on all my posts, I’m probably proud of only 5 or 10 of them, perhaps even less, and that does not make me feel so good.

It’s been wonderful to see some people reading my posts regularly, and I’d like to thank them for reading me even though I don’t feel like I’ve written good content most of the time. The only two good things that have happened because of my Medium challenge are:
- I have actually made a slow return to writing at times on my original blog. Somehow, I feel what I write there is more from the heart than what I pour out here. I don’t know why that is so, but perhaps Medium as a platform to express myself just does not appeal to me much. In fact, the one reason I took up this challenge on Medium was because I don’t have a lot of people I know on this platform. This made the escape-route easy for me — in case I wouldn’t be able to complete the challenge, no one I knew would really come to know about it. 
- I’ve realized it’s easier for me to write when I know my content won’t be read by anyone. Writing helps me make sense of my feelings. It gives me an outlet which my voice denies. But the fact that someone can read about my vulnerabilities makes me uncomfortable. I’ve never been alright with displaying my weaknesses before the world. Thus, I’ve actually started maintaining a personal journal all over again — a safe, nonjudgmental space where I can pour my heart out, and go back to it, reflect, without any inhibitions or fears.

So, in a way, this Medium challenge has helped me get back to writing, though, perhaps, not in the way I had fathomed. I am not sure if I’ll be able to complete this challenge — I don’t think I’ll mind if I don’t — but I am glad I’ve made it this far.

I’d like to end this post by thanking all the people who’ve been reading me here. Thanks for your support!