Aren’t you not betraying the happy side of yourself? Betrayal is odd to me. Ultimately — -it means that you hold great reverence for loyalty. So, why not be loyal to something else? Something tells me…it’s not this simple. That it’s not loyalty. Something tells me the unhappiness is simply too terrifying to face and the loyalty is just an ego cover-up. But hell, I’m no shrink — -I have just spent a lot of time with on the couch.