Leave out all The Rest

Aakash Dahal
Jul 21, 2017 · 2 min read

Infected with a disease without a cure

You can’t explain how it feels

Its like darkness all all around

I wish i could let it all out

But this ocean of pain it keeps growing

I am drowning but no one can hear me

I don’t want to sink anymore please save me

Yet I know i am the only one who can come out of this all

When i was 9 I listened to Hybrid Theory for the first time. My older brother introduced me to Linkin park. I used to pretend in my head that i was Chester and my brother was Mike.

Two front men of Linkin park. Playing there music loud in speakers and singing along. It felt amazing acting like that. I was so much influenced by him as a kid.

Today morning i woke up and checked my phone. Linkin Park Front man Chester Bennington dead. Death cause : death by hanging. This news really hit me hard.

Linkin Park helped me in some of the darkest days I had. The struggle I had with in myself everyday back then I can’t really explain it. Looking back now, it seems how can something be so hard to me. Yet, back then at that moment it was all Dark. It was cloudy, suffocating. Its don’t seems to have cure. It grows every passing day and you suffer immensely. Yet, somehow if you are lucky enough. You do get better but there doesn’t seems to be a cure to it. Its just up to you somehow. I was lucky i survived those dark days.

Yet, hearing the news of someone whom you admired so much die.

It made me feel, how he too was in that dark place. For so long he battled. Now he is gone. I cried my heart out this morning listening to Chester. The song “Place for my head” , “Crawling” , “One step Closer”. They just made me feel good even if it was for few minute. Music was my escape from all the pain i felt in me.

Now years later, look back then i see how much they helped me. Hearing that he died, I just felt a part of me died. It just hurts. Well there’s not much i can do now but I’ve been praying for him I hope he is in a better place. I hope you are in a better place Chester. I really hope you are because you guys helped me get better. So thank you Chester. Thank you so much, although it hurts knowing i won’t ever be able to hear you live. I am grateful that i had opportunity to hear your music.

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Aakash Dahal

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