Small Victories, Major Accomplishments.

Day 28

Earlier today I stopped in a waiting room with a bowl of chocolate, and I didn’t even have to stop myself, or convince myself not to indulge. I didn’t even want it. It’s a little thing, but it’s good to know I’m past the stage where I have to make an effort to resist every urge that comes to mind.

This afternoon, a coworker mentioned I looked thinner. I hadn’t noticed, and I’m not entirely sure whether he did, or he was just saying it to be polite, knowing I’d been working on it… in either case, it’s still encouraging.

I’ve had a number of cheat days recently where I’ve bent the rules a bit, and gotten away with it, not suffering a hard rebound. Sure, I still feel it… I had some corn chips today, and I had an energy crash maybe an hour later, but the cravings and hunger it triggered were immediate and short-lived. I stopped myself, and didn’t need to keep forcing myself to keep my mind off food the rest of the day. It’s real progress from where I was just a week ago.

I caught myself stress eating earlier… I reigned it in, and the damage was only 150 calories. I drank a lot of water until the urge went away. Even this setback seems like an accomplishment now, in that it wasn’t major. It’s progress.

I bought a fire suit. They really don’t make such things for overweight people, and I don’t quite fit in it… but I will. I’m putting it on the shelf, and I’m going to try again in a month, and then maybe a month after that, and so on, until I do. Small goals.