A…Change
No matter how much I’ve tried, I can’t get over the mental block of who I was, how my channel was built, and where it all is now.
I started streaming in March of 2011. For the longest time I played variety until I got hooked onto Minecraft later that fall, and achieved partnership with the game in November of that year. Sub buttons weren’t a guarantee with partnership back then, so it wasn’t until May 2013 that I achieved sub button status. Yet despite all that success, despite all of the incredible things I was able to do, it doesn’t help with where I am now. I am grateful for everything I was able to do, but recently I’ve mentally struggled with who I am.
Despite telling myself to just have fun and stream for fun, the big lumbering number of followers and my former fame under the name EddieRuckus is a constant battle I’ve struggled with for the past 2–3 years. I would wager that 75–85% of my following and success came solely from Minecraft, and no matter how much I try to change my direction both channel wise and mentally, I can’t escape it. It eats at me, tears me apart, and doesn’t allow me to have the one thing I should always have while streaming: fun.
That is why I’m creating a new channel, since Twitch isn’t able to remove all of my followers despite asking to do so. I don’t mind losing viewers, I don’t mind losing followers, I want to be able to stream without that being in the back of my mind. And for some reason, a new channel seems to offer my mentality and the way MY brain works that option.
I’m not closing down EddieRuckus, but I’m going to start streaming from a new channel to start a transition over to it. Eventually, down the road(possibly 2018), I won’t be streaming from EddieRuckus anymore, but not anytime in the near future. Later on in the transition, I will only stream on EddieRuckus for MC only, as that was what the channel was built upon. For those that want to unsub, you are welcome to, or unfollow, I am totally ok with it. I will never use any partner perks as I make this transition, and if Twitch decides to remove partnership during this time I have accepted that as a possibility as well.
Think what you will, try to convince me otherwise if you want, directly or indirectly question why a streamer would do this all you want on social media or on your own streams. I am not concerned with what others think, what others will preach from this, and what others want from this. I need to do what’s right for me, mistake or not, because if I don’t I fear I may stop streaming forever. This new channel, as said before, will help me find what I lost when I started: fun.
