A Poem That Tells Of Hard Times

I spend minutes stuttering, stumbling

I can’t find the words so the tears come tumbling

Down my face to the problem at hand

Will you understand?

Understand that i’m a shy one who doesn’t like contact

From the eyes that stare watching me react

My mind flipping as I know what’s to come

As the tears are dry and my eyes feel numb

That’s when I start to let things release

Words I can’t take back or fix piece by piece

I cannot hold back I cannot stop

Because these thoughts in my head I cannot drop

Now i’m cast away to this isolation

Where I feel like i’ve disrupt the whole nation

And i’m left to weep and scream the frustration wins

And they’ve probably started to count my sins

And it comes to a close right there and then

As I lose my power and i’m tired again

I go to rest my stressed out body

But I cannot ever rest knowing what I did was shoddy

But I attempt to rest for my sake

As my heart thinks of the things I said and starts to ache

How did I ever say things such as that

If I have control, where is it at?

-Eden Laura Rose