Your experience mirrors mine — was on them for 10+ years, on and off, until about a year ago. I got tired of feeling somewhat numb. Now I have the same “big feelings” at inconvenient moments. Perhaps most disturbingly, I’m left wondering about how my decision making and behavior were impacted during those years. I did certain things I don’t think I would have done if I were in my right mind. Feels like I’m coming out of a fog now, and trying to make sense of what happened.