You know what hurts more than being alone?
Feeling alone when you are surrounded.
To have people around you yet
you feel like your thoughts are unworthy to be heard,
Your voice a sound that irritates the ears.
You feel like a burden to those around you.
More crushing is trying to ignore those feelings.
trying to be kind to others still, regardless of the pain you feel
The feeling doesn’t waver.
You feel no different.
In fact you feel worse.
Your efforts go unnoticed, not making a difference.
The pain stings more because you tried.
If only I could feel nothing. If only I could not care.
I would much rather feel nothing then to feel