I took this selfie at a time (still ongoing) when I’ve had trouble looking at myself. I’ve been avoiding mirrors — especially when I undress — and basically all cameras. I’m just afraid of how damaging my own reactions to my body can be. But this night I was inspired by Adele’s eye liner and I was going on my first date in months and I was taking the “fake it till you make it” approach to self-confidence. And it worked for a little while. This is the first time in months I’ve shared a selfie with anyone but my best friends.