2013 was one of those years that you watch in Disney production. It was filled with the great opening acts, scenes where it made you laugh, cry, contemplate life, and see life through someone else’s pupil and iris. As we all know, Disney movies tend to have a happy ending , no matter how severe and bizarre the previous situations were prior to the ending, and that is exactly how 2013 was for me.
I started it out with goals , and ended it with accomplishments. I started it out with questions, and I ended it with answers. I started it out with doubt, and ended it with faith (no pun intended, trust me, ive heard every single fucking joke in the book when it comes to my name). I started it out with the mission to transfer into Bridgewater State University and continue my undergraduate career, and I finished with that mission being accomplished like a boss
So 2014…what the fuck do I have planned for this new chapter in my life
chapter 20-21 *I’m 20 right now, turning 21 this new year, see what I did there…no?…never mind*
Last year was all about accomplishing goals and realizing my strengths and weaknesses.
This year, I want to have a makeover of my life, not an extreme one but…you know what, fuck it, an EXTREME MAKEOVER. There is change, and then there is change. There is a change that is minimal and almost invisible to the human eye, and then there is change that is massive and is clearly visible to the human eye. There is a change that is boring and almost placid and tranquil, and then there is a change that pops and brings about an immediate response, whether positive or negative.
I’m aiming for the latter parts of the examples of change I just laid out to you
To be honest, when I look in the mirror each day, I don’t see a completed canvas of work, and I can’t say I’m proud of what I see. If I could carry around a neon sign that said “Improvements needed and wanted” on top of my head, it would drive the point home without any detours or obstacles.
So I’m going to pursue change. I’m going to change my attitude. I’m going to change my attitude. I’m going to change my weight and fitness, and I’m going to change my fashion. These are all changes that can be easily made with effort, and effort is something i realized I could produce a lot of in 2013. Effort and hard work brought me to the pinnacle of where I am today. I want my change to bring about a sudden reaction. I want that “Damn, I almost didnt recognize you, Faith,something is different about you and I like it” reaction.
Why do I want all these changes specifically?
With all these changes in place, I can finally be perceived as a smooth, well rounded, intelligent black gentleman with a lot to prove and offer to the world.
2013 was my official coming out party. 2013 caused me to open my eyes and see that if I put more effort into the changes I want to make happen in 2014, that the flood gates would open and my life would be on a different level then it is right now. It’s all about not settling for second best and mediocore. Those days are long gone now. These changes are about striving to be the best man in the room, and causing that girl to look at me twice before she even thinks about looking at the next motherfucker in the room. These changes are about having the confidence when I walk out of that interview with a potentiatl employer knowing I owned that bitch of an interview and the job is mine. If you really think about it, the changes I want to make are outward changes with significant inward changes.
I actually had plans tonight. I was to head to NYC, watch the ball drop with a few friends, and get hammered.
I’m at my laptop, drinking Hennessy and writing
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