Taylor Sanchez: LOST, a poem

She looks in the mirror to see her once gentle face blotched of purple and black.
Tears are running down her cheek.
Mascara is smeared beneath her sorrowing eyes.
Blood is dripping from her nose.
Her arms are covered too… Purple and back everywhere.

What has happened to me?
Where am I?
How did I get here?
What did I do wrong?
It’s all my fault…
I shouldn’t have spoke.
I should have been quiet…
Why do I feel so sore?
What am I doing?
Will the pain ever go away?
How do I cover this up?
He said he loved me.
If someone loves you do they do this to you?
Maybe this is what I deserve.
I don’t know what went wrong.

I’m lost.
I’m scared.
I’m hurting.
I’m broken.

Where do I go from here?

I don’t know who I am…
Can you help me?

My work is based off of “To Fear the Self” found in To Love as Aswang by Barbara Jane Reyes. This poem was fairly short. The way I perceived the poem was a woman looking in the mirror seeing herself after something brutal happened to her. This poem could have been looked upon in a lot of different ways. With my writing, I wanted to give a more into depth perception of how the woman was feeling I wanted to give background information then give the floor to her where she could speak her feelings. I found the poem “To Fear the Self” very interesting because I thought it was really sad. Unfortunate, that someone could fear themselves. However, completely true. When you feel lost in your own body and all you want is help.

I truly admire this writer because To Love as Aswang is filled with real life things. Everything written in this book was filled with deep, difficult, and true life stories that a person may go through throughout their life. I admire this book because it gave readers a glimpse inside another person’s reality. Perhaps, at times the reader could relate. I felt passionate while reading Reyes’s pieces. I found myself truly angry at times because I would get so into the writing.

After reading Reyes’s work I wanted to write about something real too. I wanted to share with you something that I have witnessed in life. Something, that people go through every day. My piece paints a picture of someone who is hurt inside, someone who is lost, someone who is going through a difficult time, and needs help. I wrote this because I was truly inspired by Reyes’s writing. I wrote this in hopes for others to see that this is not okay. In hopes for others to reach out to their friends and family to protect them. I feel that we all need to stand together in order for the pain to go away. Times are difficult and the only way we can get through it is by supporting each other.

With my piece, I wanted the readers to feel the feelings that the woman in my writing went through. I wanted there to be a greater empathy to grow amongst the reader towards people who go through this. I wanted the reader to get a peek of the questions that this woman has so that they know what is going through her mind. There were a lot of questions that I wrote in my piece. I did this purposely because I wanted the reader to feel dazed just as how the woman feels in this piece. There are a lot of questions said and a lot of questions unanswered. I ended my piece with “I don’t know who I am… Can you help me?” Because I wanted the reader to be left with that question in their mind. Can they help this person? If so, what ways can you help? How can you take a stand for someone who is going through something difficult like this? How can you make a difference in ones life and change their life for the better? How can you be a true support system for this woman?