Titles

Titles. Not some book title but relationship ones. Like, are you hooking up? Or are you together? Usually, I wouldn’t give a damn about stupid things like relationship titles but unfortunately, when you really like someone you start to care.

Sometimes they are easy to figure out. Other times, there is no clear answer. It’s easy to be tricked into liking someone too much though when you’re only seeing each other or something like that.

I’ve been seeing this guy for awhile and in the beginning I didn’t know what I wanted from him. I wasn’t looking for a relationship when I found him either. However, turns out we have a lot in common and he’s really great and I really like him even though I’ve tried my best not to. Nevertheless, he crept up on me and now he’s constantly on my mind and I want the title. I want the title and I want us to be an official couple because now our unofficial coupling does nothing but bother me because I feel like it’s not real. Like him calling me “babe” and sending me heart emojis and talking every day since we met means nothing. And that really bothers me.

However, I didn’t realize how much I wanted it to be official until today as I was asking him about why we’re not official. Feeling like he doesn’t want it as much as I do is what bothers me most. He has reasons for not wanting it that have nothing to do with me and I guess I should be happy about that but I’m not. If I give him no reason to not be with me than why not be with me?

I wish it was as simple as not having a title that would make it easy for me to just walk away but my feelings are already involved and he says he has feelings too but does it matter if he’s still unsure of what he wants?