Daily Musings: Retail investors make me sick — My psychosis is getting worse — Columbine High School Massacre — Janie and Sleepy Hollow

6–23–2017

Retail investors are so stupid. The majority are in-the-closet gamblers who tout the value investing path. They make me sick. In my line of work I see so much stupid shit retail investors do. Most don’t do the work needed to actually understand a business. Understanding a business isn’t a couple hour project or a week long task. It takes a significant amount of time and energy to actually understand what you are buying. Behind every ticker symbol is an actual business. If the business does well the stock price will do well. Most can understand that. But when put into practice, the majority revert back to the speculative logic that a stock price is a tool used to enhance their gambling addiction.

I think my psychosis is getting worse. Every day my psychotic thoughts pry deeper and deeper into my mind. I’m not sure what is going on. I have always thought of myself as higher on the psychotic spectrum than the average. Maybe my psychotic spectrum meter is rising — I wouldn’t doubt that. It’s getting hard to tell external reality from internal reality. I am good a going through the motions or normalcy — but I feel my psychosis is beginning to emerge to the world. I’m scared. If my internal demons are released, something bad will happen.

I find it strange that Dylan Klebold was born on September 11th, 1981. Twenty years later the World Trade Center’s fell. Even more interesting, the day Eric Harris and Dylan Klebold shot up Columbine High School was April 20th, 1999. There have been a lot of interesting things that have happened on April 20th. A few examples; The Deepwater Horizon rig explosion in 2010, Adolf Hitler’s birthday, the Ludlow Coal Mine Massacre (in Colorado — same state as Columbine) and strangely enough, American stoners celebrate the day for whatever reason. Here is a list of other notable dates on 4–20.

I can’t wait to make it out to the town of Sleepy Hollow to my cabin and better yet, to see Janie. She doesn’t know I am coming. But I did set up a weekend appointment with her real estate firm to check out a few houses in the area. I also figured out what church she goes too and I plan on attending the morning service. I sent a box of dead animals to Janie husband’s mother yesterday. She goes to the same church as Janie. I can’t wait to see her petrified face.