I can’t handle it when someone doesn’t like me

Hopefully one day I’ll be able to.

When I know — or think — someone doesn’t like me, I find it impossible to switch off from that thought. It rolls around my head like a marble. I try to come up with logical reasons as to why they don’t like me; they must have misunderstood something I said, they don’t know me well enough or they think I did something that I didn’t do.

I go through a cycle of trying too hard to please that person, to trying to mildly irritate them, to then ignoring them completely.

The thing is, there’s always going to be at least one person around who doesn’t like me. So I’ve got to wrap my head around the fact that it’ll always be there and that it’s not the end of the world.

The other thing I don’t consider enough, is that more often than not, people who I think ‘don’t like me’, actually don’t give me that much thought at all, and are usually just generally a bit short with everyone.

I like to solve problems and I like everything to be connected and working in conjunction, so it really bothers me when I see a crease like perceived dislike.

Just got to learn to live with a few creases!