Why I’m an Anonymous sex worker
Have you ever been compelled by outside forces to do something in your life?
That no matter what you do to steer a different path, it keeps falling in your lap?
In my civilian career I have always had this one goal in mind, a goal that I will continue to pursue. But in that pursuit others saw the potential in me in a very specific niche, and in that area of work is where I found the most successful enjoyable vanilla civilian work. I never planned on it to be this way…it just fell into my lap.
And so did my work in Findom. My first sub came to me when I was a member of fetlife, just finding my way in this new kinky world I was delving into headfirst. It was a time of self discovery for me, of my darkest parts. All the “50 shades”. Being involved in sex work for years now I have grown in many ways and learned so much from others. Findom became a relationship, with myself. In placing value for my time, my emotional work, and holding myself to a high esteem my personal growth and self love skyrocketed to new levels. I’m more in love with myself then when I started. I understand the sexes and our nuanced interactions. My appreciation for all women kind, the goddesses we are in this world, is so much so it brings a tear to my eye to even fathom it. Women, are unparalleled. Without us there would be no man.
I would have never thought that way had it not been for Findom. I never took a women’s studies course, I went to college for something completely different. Being in kink was like visiting a new planet for me. I’m forever insatiable when it comes to learning and making sense of this new world.
Right now I walk the line between being a sex worker and a civilian woman. If at anytime one or the other doesn’t make me happy, I know something new will fall into my lap. But I will never stop my dream pursuits, and I’ll forever take with me what I learned.
My dream, is to be in the position where I can be an out sex worker and not be judged. Humans are multi faceted complicated creatures. We are dark and we are light. I visited all these parts of myself and found, the “dark” parts are not so dark…they were the light I needed. There is darkness so many people need and need to accept about themselves.
So why am I anonymous? These reasons are deeply personal. The best way I can put it is this.
You know me now, but you don’t know me 5 years ago, or who I will be 5 years from now. The internet is forever. It records you 5 years ago, and will more so 5 years from now. I want freedom to visit my darkest parts and not be judged. The freedom to be whomever I need to be in the present and in the future.
Everyone deserves that.
-GLP

