Anxiousness in the Face of Uncertainty
I like to tell myself that I am a man of reason. A man of logic. However, the Human heart for all of its wonderful attributes cannot help but have feelings beyond our control.
I am not someone who suffers from depression like many people, but anxiety has always been a part of my life, for as long as I can remember. Sometimes, it can be nearly overwhelming, but I have learned to live with it as much as I can.
Fear and anxiousness go hand in hand. A fear of rejection. A fear of having my inner demons released to rampage their way through my mind. A fear of loss. I have gone through the gambit of these emotions many times over the years.
I have a friend has become dear over the past few years. Even after the time has passed, I am still afraid of being rejected by her. It’s not logical in the slightest, because she never has, and I don’t believe ever would. All of this said, the fear still remains, and anxiety rears its ugly head once more. It is a vicious cycle. With the recent loss of my father, it creeps back in. I just don’t want to lose anyone else in my life.
So, what do we do in these situations? Do we allow anxiousness to overwhelm who we are? Do we succumb to its machinations on our lives, simply because it is easier to flee from adversity? I say no.
I learn to live with these emotions. I don’t let them rule me. I have work to do. I have family to take care of. Friends to pray for, and memories to share. Mind over matter. It’s not easy, but it is the only way to work through what plagues you. We give these concerns over to God, and allow Him to work His miracles in our lives.