Working and Studying
Sometimes I think that I'm having a hard time with university and work, I don't know if I'll be able to manage those two things together. I think I'm missing a lot because let's face it , "student's life" only last that long, and that's something you might not be able to replicate.. Sometimes I feel that my boss and my teachers are conspiring on finding the best way to burn me down, and I just start to whine about it, how University is not easy, how my job sucks….
I don't like doing both things cause it's not that easy I mean, I have to push myself harder than I might ever had.
But maybe on the long run it will be something good, I will improve my self discipline , that's something that I lack of. With luck I will learn how to multitask even better or how to set priorities.
But I don't always see it that way, sometimes I can only focus on the bad things like how there are days when I have to go to university and then go to work afterwards. Or how I don't get almost any days off because I have to work or study.
I think I'm starting to use work as a excuse not to study, because if I fail at my studies I can easily blame it on the work and how there was not enough time to study or learn and people will understand.
I think I could easily stop working and ask help to the government, but I don't do it because of reasons:
I don't want to become more of a Slob of what I'm now, without a job I would probably stay in my cave all day and maybe just waste time.
I don't want to think that I need help when I don't really need it. (I'm that kind of person that doesn't like to ask for help.)
I think I appreciate the things that money can buy, if I earn that money by myself.
If I stop working I can't blame something for my failures.
I don't want to think that I'm not capable of doing both things, because I know I can make it, I just need to get my shit together.
I might whine alot of how doing both things sucks, but I think it's safe to say that most of the time it is not as bad as it sounds and I kinda enjoy doing both things ,that way I won't get bored that easily, I just have to have a good attitude and everything will be more than okay. There are people that went through worse and they made it. I don't see why it has to be any different with me.
You just have to Work hard and Play hard.