Separation

My Boy left for Germany this morning. A five-week trip to visit family and friends — way too long! The apartment feels so empty without him.

This is the first time that we will be apart for that long, since he joined me in Jakarta at the beginning of the year. It’s only been a few hours but already I am realising how awkward it is not to have my emotional crutch handy.

I’ve been trying to distract myself all afternoon: went and got some much needed stationery, had an extended lunch, read the papers, read this week’s Tempo, sorted out my files, sorted out my books, took a nap, did my groceries, booked an impromptu trip to Bali for next weekend, called a friend, listened to some jazz, even did some work… Nothing seems to be able to take my mind off the fact that he’s just not around.

It will be a challenge to constantly find ways to amuse myself for the next five weeks. Jakarta will not make that easy. Jakarta, is one of the loneliest cities.