Everybody has a story…tell it.
This past week I received the opportunity to go to Panama City on a church trip, Hog Wild. Several churches from the state of AR traveled in loaded vans and buses to come grow closer to each other and to Christ for a week.
During Wednesday’s night lesson, Big Lee was talking about his testimony and how The Lord showed himself to Lee in an innumerable amount of ways. His testimony of how he came to Jesus was so extravagant, detailed, and beautiful. He went on to say that sharing our story is one of the greatest ways we are able to tell others about Jesus and what He has done for us.
Hearing this testimony gave me chills from head to toe, but then I started asking myself, “What is my story?” After pondering this, I was in a state of depression and confusion because I didn’t feel like I had a story…at least not one worth telling. Later that night I found myself falling apart in my boy’s arms exclaiming to him that my story isn’t worth it and thankfully he began to pray over me. I needed to talk to someone older who could help me sort this uncertainty out, but I couldn’t bring myself to ask anyone. The next morning I received a phone call from my mom and I told her how I was feeling about it all. She said “Halley, It isn’t just how you came to know Jesus, it’s all the many battles Christ wins for you afterwards.”
You see, I believed that a testimony was how you came to know Jesus, which it is, but it is also what God has/is doing for us after we become followers of Him. My story felt worthless, boring, and ineffective, but now I know that it is worth telling and can be used to bring Him glory.
Over the next few weeks, I will be sharing pieces of my testimony as God reveals to me which parts to tell. My prayer and hope over this time is that God will put the right words at the right time to help others who may have had similar struggles that I have. Please pray for me as I seek God’s guidance, but more than that, pray that every hardship I have been through will reach the ears of those who need to hear it. Also, that I will be able to adequately tell what God has done in my life, and about the battles He has won for me. Suicide, divorce, pride, and so much more cannot defeat my God. That’s a promise. G3.