Everyone has flaws, parts of their body they wish they could change. No one is born perfect, and this is the reason why surgery is such a big booming industry. I have flaws just as much as the next guy.
For the longest time, I remember being ashamed of two things. My thumbs, and my irregular hairline. I'll devote this thought to my thumbs going forward.
First and foremost, I'm lucky to have thumbs. I realize given the cards we are dealt, that not having thumbs, or more imminent flaws might be presented. As a child, I was often made fun of because of my thumb size. I was born with a condition called clubbed thumbs, where it looks like a big toe, and is stubby, as opposed to long and skinny. You've probably heard of it before, as prominent famous actors and actresses, Megan Fox, was also diagnosed with it on both thumbs.
The trait in my family is recessive, but appears in my mother's left hand. I was given the recessive trait at birth, causing both of my thumbs to appear clubbed, and thus, stubby. I've often felt embarrassed, because it's not appealing, the nail bed is tiny, and in public situations, I've always felt the need to hide my fingers. It causes attention, unwanted attention, and as a result, I've often felt the need to diverge that attention, by hiding it thus so.
The condition is only an aesthetic one, not a functioning one. I have full control of my thumbs, and aside from distance issues, obviously, I am able to do everything that non-clubbed thumb individuals are not. My everyday tasks are not hindered by the lack of my thumbs.
I've never really felt comfortable with my thumbs, and often felt the need to hide it in situations where the use of a thumb was evident. I would go out of my way to hold a Subway or bus pole differently. I constantly wore mittens during the winter, and most notably, have not shaken hands with anyone in quite a while. Most people would probably be turned off if they knew I had such a condition.
I have often felt ashamed because of how it has looked, so unnormal, so uncanny, and out of the ordinary. Surgery wouldn't even be able to fix it, as bones and nerve endings caused the thumb to be shorter then it actually is. It's not possible to add bone length.
I don't know when I might not be ashamed of my thumbs, but as I get older, I start to care less and less. In fact, it's very appealing when I actually find another individual with the same flaws as me.
That has yet to happen, but it is always a possibility. My mom are I are connected in this way.