The Past Two Years of My Life

This is a story about my battle with anxiety

About two years ago during my Sophomore year of High School, I started dealing with aching stomach pains. The first time this ever happened to me I was sitting in my Spanish class taking notes. Out of nowhere, my stomach was overcame with these pains that made me feel like I was going to hurl all over the floor of this classroom, which was full of all these 15 to 16 year old kids who would indeed make fun of me for years to come. I told the teacher I wasn’t feeling well and she excused me down to the office where I would check out and wait for my Grandmother to come pick me up and take me home. I went home, never threw up but the pains continued. At the time, I thought nothing of it. I just thought, “oh, it must have been something I ate this morning or for lunch today.” It was way more than that.

The next day, I went to school and as I sat in my first period class, the stomach pains returned. I thought at this point it had to be at least the stomach flu. I did the same thing from the day before, asked the teacher to be excused, went down to the office, and my Grandmother picked me up again and I took another day off of school.

It was definitely not the stomach flu. I missed every day of school the rest of the week as my stomach would disturb my sleep and keep me up until the early morning.

The absences continued to pile up. This was in April of 2015, and I missed nearly every day of that entire month. Every time I was at school, my stomach would give me this complete and aching pain that I could not bear to stand. I had to leave school numerous times and stay home most days.

Come June 2015, I finally had a counselor. I talked with this counselor weekly, and I still continue to see him to this day. We talked about my stomach pains and he had linked it back to my anxiety. There was no doubt that was exactly what it was that was causing all this pain in my stomach. Anxiety had gotten the best of me, and took over my whole life and changed the way I did a lot of things. I’ve always had anxiety throughout my whole life, but I never thought it would ever get this bad. This was the worst it had ever been.

The classes I took that year were HARD. I fell behind a lot and it drove a lot of stress to come into my life and that led to the severe stomach pains. I ended up failing math that year, while passing all my other seven classes with 1 D+, 4 C’s, 1 B, and 1 A-. This truly was the worst my end of the year report card has ever looked.

The next year came, and I was a Junior. The year started out rough, with stomach pains galore. Things got much better however, but my stomach pains would occasionally spark up. I had no clue though, that Junior year was going to be the best year of my life.

I started out the school year taking much easier classes than the year before, and I excelled. My stress had almost gone away completely, but it had still been there at times throughout the year, which would spark very rare pains.

In December of 2015, I met a girl named Becca. After I met her, I became the happiest person I think I could ever be. She put a smile on my face every single day and I slowly fell in love with her at every living moment. She showed me what love was and showed me how to be happy and forget such stomach pains. In the early months of 2016, the pains had gone away and only hit me in times of stress. I only got to see her almost every two weeks as I live in Springfield, Oregon, and she lives in Vancouver, Washington. That’s about a two hour drive. I first met her on February 27th, 2016 and it really changed my life ever since. She made life a whole lot better, and was a huge factor in defeating my anxieties.

And now I sit here writing this story about my young teen aged life and how I’ve fought against anxiety. I’ve just begun my senior year and my stress has seemed to returned, but I feel like I’ve been through so many battles with my anxiety that I finally know how to calm it down. My anxieties will always be there with me throughout my life, but I won’t let them win.

All I can say is: Life gets better. Anxiety sucks, a lot, but there is always a solution to the problem that you’re going through.