PASS

PASS actually stands for post abortion stress syndrome. God i’m so stressed . i dont know what to do , i recently had one and these days , i find myself wanting to cry more often and being depressed and now is not the time for that. its just not the time because of my upcoming exams . Strength and bravery is what i continuously taught myself but these days , its lacking . excessively lacking. i just dont understand how i can be brave or strong knowing what ive done. ive killed my own . i was raised in a firm christian background so how could i ? i wish i had died honestly speaking. I knew what i was doing was/is a sin God’s eyes but i still did it . im a monster . a mothers love is unconditional, i couldnt show that love, i killed my own child, what kind of mother am i ? what kind of mother will i be? barely one semester into first year and im already getting an abortion?. i deserve every little bit of pain thats coming to me . i just wish i was dead.