In a few days time I’ll be meeting with my boss to go through the next step in the annual personal development cycle. As always we’ll discuss where I want to go with my career, what development goals I should have for the year to move this plan forward, blah blah. This is an aggravating and demeaning process much loathed throughout not only my office but apparently basically all my peers: a system that’s become the norm in larger corporate offices worldwide because someone in HR thought it was a good idea, so now everyone is required to do it.

Here’s how it will really go down. I’ll go into the meeting making the same noises as always about being good where I am from a career perspective because, in truth, what I really want is to move away from boss. He’ll offer his suggestions for my development which are wholly unrelated to reality because he doesn’t understand what I do, no matter how often I try to explain the intricacies of it. His terrible list will end up being what I go with, and throughout the year I’ll achieve it basically without even trying. Because they’re never in any way a stretch, and anything he’d want to add that IS a stretch won’t have anything to do with my actual profession.

And then at the end of the year we’ll go over my performance review again, I will as always score 4 out of 5 and therefore not be eligible for the biggest possible bonus (happens every year to everyone, basically), but I’ll still be making good enough money that it’s completely unworth my time to go looking for work elsewhere so I can stop stagnating in this situation. And, feeling pointless, unhelpful, and demeaned by the process I’ll take my end of year time off and get back to work just after the 1st, whining on some blog about stagnating and micromanagers and so on.

Cuz that’s what I do.

I’ve been applying to quite a few other jobs, internal and external, and gotten no nibbles at all. This is somewhat expected but disheartening. The resume probably needs a significant tuneup, and I say that largely considering that the work I’ve done under boss the past few years has been such a schizophrenic mishmash of duties that it’s hard to tell what my job is.

Something that’s gotten to me before.