My Hansel and Gretel moral

“How could I find something where i had left nothing?”.

When I picked up my pen today, I realized that I had not accepted the fact that i had just celebrated the end of another year in my life and it is still moving forward.Yet it seems that I cannot shake off this feeling of emptiness.

So as I sat staring at my notepad,I tried to recall the years past, trying to remember the things I had done for myself,things I had done because I wanted to, not things I did because I had to or because I was expected to and yet in these early years of my adult life I cannot seem to find an interesting story,hobby,venture…nothing all I could see was dreams not chased and left behind to waste and then I thought to myself “How could i find something where i had left nothing”.

This brought the thought of the tale of Hansel and Gretel to my mind,they found their way back because they left a trail of breadcrumbs,but i had not left breadcrumbs,i had left nothing ,nothing to link me with my younger self,no memories,no attempts,no mistakes only moments of standstill and fear,memories of being too scared to step out of my shell,too scared to break my bread.

Truth be told,i have no idea how to move forward but i am sure i do not want to go back.So here I am in my static present ,looking into my blank past,anticipating a crumby future without a sure plan but with a loaf of bread in my hand.

“Don’t dwell on what went wrong. Instead, focus on what to do next. Spend your energies on moving forward toward finding the answer”- Denis Waitley