I’m agree with your solution but I would definitely pursue what you love most, I like the balance you’re doing though. It can be very hard and I also get confused on what I really want to do. Just make sure you’re making little steps everyday to improve in one of those and you’ll make huge progress. Being you said you’ve been writing since 6 it must be one of your true passions. Also it’s very difficult to maintain a full time job and work on your craft, can definitely relate.