I agree with a lot of what was written in the comments. But the one thing that appears to be missing is the recognition that there IS such a thing as “Right” and “Wrong”. That is not the end of a statement, but rather should be the beginning of a conversation. It rarely is though — at least not in forums like this. Following what you want is like saying “follow your heart”. This is what got you into trouble in the very first sentence! I get it that this is your own view on what happened in your life, but if you do not diagnose your situation, you are doomed to repeat it. Worse yet, you are going to continue to write things like this and influence others — sadly to more needless suffering.