A message from hell,heaven or nowhere

Adel Kermiche (left) and Abdel Malik (right) pledged allegiance to ISIS in a video, released just a day after Father Jacques Hamel had his throat slit by the twisted fanatics

My name is Adel Karmiche or as commonly infamous as the French priest’s Slayer.

Here I’m talking from the afterlife as I try to express my subtle feelings amid a lifeless place embraced by gloomy clouds and motionless darkness.

there is no clue that can give me a hint regarding the whereabouts of this place, unfortunately the noise from teeth gritting is the only utterly conspicuous sound that I can recognize which drives my mind and thoughts into the past and the act of vile that I deeply regret.

Haunted by the past and living the non-existing present , remorseful is insufferably the only real sense that I can catch.

Grudges, hatred and despise are the only practical words that can explain how some people feel when they glance or hear my name, yet the rest of them praise the hateful act I did and even gratefully call me a Martyr and a defender of my people ,these two opposite sets of feelings can only be explained by the religious identity of a particular person discussing the issue.

Nobody thinks of what I went through and how I was feeling.

Nevertheless, DON’T BLAME ME ,I’m just another human being who’s grown up in a religiously fossilized and intolerant atmosphere that immensely shaped my perspectives upon life and humans rendering unchangeable beliefs of revenge and hatred inside me .

When I became grown-up ,those dishonest beliefs rooted inside me early in my childhood were about to vanish as I began to pick up a different reality about the people whom I was supposed to hate and despise according to my religious beliefs, however the seeds of hatred ingrained in my mind since my early childhood are now being watered as I get orders to start acting like a “real believer” and implement the teaching of our forefathers ,that is, we should fight the “ infidels “ no matter what , although that seemed contradictory with the reality that I perceived and experienced while living in France about the so-called “ infidels”.

They exploited on my sympathy and my sense of loyalty toward my religion and asked me to comply with their hateful teachings ,and I actually did , I pledged to carry out everything as a symbol of allegiance to those who recruited me until I ended up shot dead after I chopped the priest’s head off .

I sacrificed my own life willing to get something immortal in return , but now I’m here with nothing , I eventually had to realize and unwillingly accept the shameful truth that I was manipulated by a group of blood-thirsty voracious butchers who spread the notion of self-sacrificing while they themselves were enjoying the luxury of life ,but this isn’t what I’m concerned about ,what actually does add more pain , sorrow and grief is the fact that those criminal recruiters are alive ,free and keeping on playing and screwing with the minds and lives of young people .

Here is my message “ EARTH IS THE KINGDOM OF GOD AND IF THERE IS ANYTHING WORTH-DOING IT IS THE WILL TO MAKE IT A BETTER PLACE , DON’T BELIEVE THE LIES TOLD REGARDING GETTING REWARDS FOR THE ACT OF MURDER , KILLING WILL CHANGE NOTHING .
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