Static and frozen in time
Splintered and broken inside
By choice or by necessity?
Held here by my responsibility
Why do you focus on the negative?
Constant fear is no way for you to live
Yes, I know it isn’t rational
But I have learned it isn’t safe to ask for help at all
Scrambling for purchase on the ledge
It’ll never stop; I’d be better off if I was dead
Can’t do that to my children, to my spouse
Too much noise, gotta get out of the fucking house
I can’t go out there. I just can’t. I’ve tried.
Just smile and say, "I’m ok". They want the lie.