where she closes a door she opens a windowor so i am toldfor every door closes, slams shut behind meand turns into a wall
every wall solid, brick, concreteimpenetrable and greyno cracks, nowhere to slip through…
She smiles, I cry.She is outgoing, I am shy.She loves, I am alone.She is amazing, I am unknown. She is beautiful, I am a mess. She is happy, I am depressed. My mask is perfect: She hides me.
I can’t sleepEverytime I remember your wordsThey snap and recoilAnd hurt me awakeNext time when someonePromises me foreverI’ll just smileLook them in the eyes and askHow long is forever to you.