5/28

Got to work. Finished the first half of the protocol buffer codelab after asking my mentor a coding question. Looked at the solution for the second part. So I actually got coding done today!

I know what my project is, and my mentor has started sending me instructions. I’m really excited about my project. I’m excited to learn about all the different internal systems. I’m happy with my team. ☺

I went to the gym and did some weighted exercises and liners. That was really fun. I love feeling sore. Working out makes me really happy. I love the gym I’ve found. I should stop telling everyone I know about it because then it will be super crowded. I also want to try that CrossFit class one of these days.

I keep thinking about how I really like being alone. I don’t think I need to be completely commitment free; I just think that I need to have a lot of space and not be emotionally suffocated at all. Thinking a lot about the future kind of makes me emotionally suffocated even though I want it. I think I just need a lot of meditation time to be introspective and just lots of time to think about myself instead of how the other person is feeling. Because then I get upset when they don’t think about how I’m feeling as much as I think about how they’re feeling since I’m sort of thinking of how they’re feeling as an obligation to some extent. I just felt antisocial from friends also in general today. That time of month.

I had lunch with random Indian people on my team today. They had boba in the cafes! Apparently they have it every week. I followed them after our team meeting, which was really enjoyable. I loved hearing about everyone’s ideas. I’m glad they asked me to join them, even though it was sort of as an afterthought.

Dinner with Hai, Achal, Tiffany, Kushal, Jian, Ashleigh, Smitha! So all Berkeley people. It was really enjoyable. We had a great discussion about unconscious bias at Google. I’m glad there’s such a strong Berkeley community and all sorts of people working on cool projects. I appreciate that Hai is bringing all of us together and making an effort to eat with us and ask us if we have questions.

I realized I’ve been eating way too much and uncontrollably, so I downloaded My Fitness Pal as per Ashleigh’s suggestion. I really like the interface; it’s pretty easy to use actually. I’m calorically over for today, but that makes sense since I downloaded and started tracking at night. I hope to track again and to go back to my clean eating lifestyle.