6/11

Woke up earlier than the previous 2 days. Got to work. Realized that the thing I couldn’t figure out yesterday was actually really easy. Did what I thought I needed to do and sent the data to my manager. But apparently I did it completely wrong. But it’s okay! She then sent me an example and a more detailed description of what she wanted me to do. Then I struggled for a bit. Also, I don’t really know C++, so everything is just extra hard. I don’t think my host knows that. She kept changing the nature of the assignment and then eventually just decided to do it herself. The design doc isn’t completely done, and we’ve been figuring out little details, so she had to tweak which data fields she wanted me to look at.

Meeting with my team where we went over OKRs(objectives and key results). They skipped mine! But I saw my name on the presentation thing and I was super excited. I finally figured out the codename of the project I’ve been working on! How exciting. Progress.

Then lunch with Linda! She’s so nice. We had a better discussion than last time. It was about a hour and a half. Which is longer than normal lunches. I learned a lot about Larry Page. I also learned that it’s really hard to get through all the red tape in order to get promoted at Google. Also, since promotion is about consecutive good performance, it’s disadvantageous for women who want to have children. And you have to be social because it’s also a peer-based review system.

Then I went back to my desk for like 10 minutes then headed out to an interview workshop. The presenter talked about how you shouldn’t be afraid to reach out to different people at Google to schedule lunches with them. If you’re interested in their teams, you should reach out to them and ask them what you should do to be able to join. I want to be that aggressive, but at the same time, it’s hard to just because I don’t know much about what exactly I want to do or what I’m really interested in. I kind of want to work in the health sector…but I guess I’m fine with anything that makes me think. I feel like I should take a year off to just travel and figure out what I like except people rarely have that luxury. I also think my parents would be confused. Since they pretty much did what they needed to do and worked really hard and just ended up enjoying what they were doing. Maybe that will happen to me?

Either way, since my manager told me I didn’t need to do the project she assigned me at the beginning of the day that I’ve just been super confused about, I just went home. Also because I started panicking about my practice interview with my host the next day. I’m really nervous; I kind of forgot a lot of things. I did practice some questions, and I asked my dad to ask me some too. He asked me a design question, and I realized that I really don’t know how to design data structures. I need to review that. I just hope I don’t get that tomorrow. I’m better at algorithms.

I coded for a bit then fell asleep. I don’t really get how people work 8 hour days. I get really tired after like 2 hours of thinking. Or maybe 1.5 hours. I guess that’s why people take so many breaks. I need to not burn out and just die. I feel like if I ever work full time anywhere, I would want to go running in the middle of the day. Or work with my computer outside. Or at least not work at a desk. I really hate working at desks. I guess I could do that now, but I feel like I would get judged if I just never showed up at my desk since I’m an intern.

I woke up at 8. I was thinking about running, and how running always makes me feel better. I just remember how every time I decide to go running I never regret it, and it makes it easier. To further motivate me, I turned on my RunKeeper app and looked at what my friends have been up to. Turns out I lost my first place spot, so of course it motivated me even more to get up and run. Then I looked at James on my feed, and he had run 6 miles and gone sub 9. Then I really had to get up. Too bad I was pretty sore from my long run and wasn’t able to go too fast or too far. Still glad I got up though!

I always feel bad when I don’t spend enough time with my dad. He purposely comes home early to see me, but I’m always doing things. I make the effort to come home early though. Yesterday I came home early but I ended up running for a super long time. Then today I came home early as well, but I fell asleep because my brain hurt/ran a lot yesterday etc. Then I woke up and went running, so I didn’t get to see him for a long period of time either.