Why I Dropped Out… Again…

The media industry is in a class of its own. And not in a good way.

If you don’t believe or agree with that statement than just Google “working class media industry”. The results are disheartening to say the least.

I have always believed in rising to a challenge. In fixing problems from the inside because that is supposed to be the best way to make change. But this time I was completely and utterly defeated.

“If you give up, it means you never wanted it” — every qualified pyscologist on Instagram ever.

I searched the term to answer one simple question. Am I just being a baby? My experience trying to find a career in the media industry has not been ideal to say the least. Unpaid work is not ok. I have done it and it sucks. You can tell me about the experience and exposure all you want but if I’m unpaid and unvalued I am expendable.

That’s what was proven to me.

So when I sacrificed my physical and mental health in pursuit of opportunities to get a start, it was the biggest mistake. And I made it over and over and over. And one last time just for good measure.

I sacrificed friendships. I had no social life. My early twenties are gone. But hey I can film, edit, and write now. At least creativley, grammatically as I am sure you can tell I am a mess.

So what now? I need an income so I will starting work at a local warehouse doing whatever mind numbing task they want for twelve hours a day. But still, they pay.

I am no longer actively working towards any creative pursuit becoming my day job. I don’t believe the industry has any intention of improving. Which makes me sad.

When tutors are shocked I have no family in London and cant afford to go intern for ITV over summer, and then give up on helping. Its clear its up to me to find a way alone.

Also its not just working class people its basically everyone who isn’t at least middle class, and a white male. I can only speak to my own experience but my uni course was 99.99% white middle class and up kids.

If you got this far and you are in a position to hire for creative positions I will just ask this. Pay people. Please.

It is basic decency.