Pleasing Everyone But Yourself
You would think that being put into a situation where you are alone and then ultimately lonely would enable you to take control of your life back at some point when you start rebuilding, but it seems the people from your past still have control of your future and try to block any attempt of getting off the floor.
It can make you feel like you are trapped in a prison, slowly suffocating, why would someone want to shatter your life and then stop you from putting the pieces back together again?
It’s important not to dwell on the past but when your history is attached to it what else can you do? it’s hard to shake the past of your back, it seems to cling on to you and will hold on tight and even suffocate you at times. Bad times drag you down.
I am a worrier, I worry about what everyone else thinks in my life except for me, I don’t tend to think of or look after myself despite the situations I now find myself in because of other people’s actions, I should stop trying to please everyone else, but I am not strong, I tend to please everyone but myself.
A lot of people I come across in life do not seem to give two shits about what others think when taking decisions in their own lives, is it the right approach? Who knows, I think we live our lives as our personalities dictate, if you feel like you are being made to walk on egg shells then you will be forever tip toeing about, I guess if you are able to become stronger then maybe you can be more decisive in your own life, if you are going constantly get walked over then you will have a lot of foot prints inprinted on you.
I do not wish to get to the end of my days covered in foot prints, I want to be able to look back at my life and smile, I want to feel content and happy that I was able to get back on track, if I am able to rebuild and I can be happy.
Let me be happy.
There are really two people in my life that I worry that I will upset, I hope I never do, they are my future and I have to stop letting my past dictate and control my life, if I can learn to stop dwelling and being controlled by my past I should then be more excited about the future, one where I am not lonely and surrounded by positive people instead who love me. The past, the present, and the future write our lives…but life is to short to be worrying about it all, live in the moment, take a deep breath and start to try and make
The past, the present, and the future write our lives…but life is to short to be worrying about it all, live in the moment, take a deep breath and start to try and make decisions to please yourself, otherwise someone will make a choice for you and will probably not be the one that you wanted.
Bad times don’t last forever but neither do good times. Enjoy the goods time whilst they last and don’t worry to much about the bad times.