Reading this left me breathless and reminded me of a time in my life that I’ve tried forgetting so many times. I was one of those kids in a place like that and I was lucky enough to have just the right amount of support to get me through. That support included someone on staff like you, and for that I am eternally grateful. This post communicates the impact that an experience like this has and I can tell that it isn’t something you forget or get over completely, especially when battling self-blame. Please know that there are people out there who are grateful for people like you and that I’m sorry that dealing with such a loss can be an outright battle sometimes.