I am so happy that you can find solace in your art. Your paintings evoke a very sad emotion(in me) and I can feel the pain by the way you paint. It is beautiful! As for having Peter Pan syndrome, I don’t know if I would use that as the proper term, perhaps hard knock life syndrome or left in the streets by no fault of your own. A child needs nurture and when they don’t get that at home they look for it and often fall victim to anyone who gives them attention. You sound like you have your head on straight because of you can look in hindsight. How all of your problems happened, you can move forward and avoid them in the future. I know this life is not easy and I commend you for sharing your story and for showing us what you feel by. Showing your paintings!! I would never push that aside!!!;)