My first obsession started when I was just 10 years old. I had an extreme fear that I would start bleeding from my eyes. I was unable to touch around my eye, look in a mirror, or even simply bending down to pick something up. I was unable to do these simple tasks because I was trying to prevent my eyes from bleeding.
Now look, I have no damn clue where I got the idea that I would start bleeding from my eyes. All I know is that it was a very real possibility to me. Every day I sat and waited for my eyes to start bleeding. I would constantly check my face in the mirror, or wipe under my eyes in search of that small drop of blood that indicated something horrific. I checked, and I checked, and I checked — I checked so often I couldn’t sleep or even stop thinking about it.
Once I got to middle school, my eye bleeding obsession stopped. As quickly as the eye-bleeding obsession vanished, it was replaced with another health-linked obsession. From there I would go on to cycle through many different obsessions that had no basis in reality or logical reasoning.
When I turned 16, I was ready to learn all I could about driving — I wanted my driver’s license so badly! While browsing on the internet one day I spotted a video about drunk driving. It was a staged video about how dangerous drunk driving can really be. From then, I had the worst…
